Tuesday, May 31

He Loves Me, He REALLY Loves Me

Last night I took my cousins to dinner to celebrate their respective graduations - two different high schools, one college.  My son stayed with his grandfather.  He stood at the door waving good-bye, super excited about the guys night ahead with Papa.  As I pulled out of the driveway and watched him standing with his Papa at the door, I couldn't help but wonder how much he really needs me.

When my son is with his dad or other family members, I always take a back seat so that my son can spend as much time as possible with the people he doesn't get to see all the time.  I try not to interfere.  Because of this few people even see me active in my role as a mom.

As a single mom, I don't get reassurance from other people that I am doing the right thing as a mom.  No one sees what I am doing on a daily basis.  No one sees how we interact with one another.

This is where my faith in God is key.  Everyday I pray that God helps make me the best mother I can be and I ask Him to let me know that I am doing a good job.

Last night when I got home my son was already in bed.  I went to my room to change clothes and when I came out he was out of bed standing in his doorway.  As soon as he saw me he opened his arms wide and bounced on his toes without saying a word.  I went to him and picked him up.  He wrapped his arms around me tightly, squeezed hard and buried his face in my neck whispering, "Mama!"

Yes, he loves me.  He needs me.

It is by the grace of God that I am who I am as a mother and I am so thankful that God works through my son to let me know that I am doing a good job.


  1. Jenni,

    You redid your blog, it looks nice, I like it. Your efforts to be the best mom to your son do not go unoticed, our Father in heaven sees them and he lets you know everyday that you are indeed doing a job through the words and actions of a child.

    Blessings to you Jenni.

  2. Jenni,
    I was a single mom for a bit and I know how difficult it is to not get that encouragement you need. So I will tell you today that you ARE being a great mother. Keep up the good work! Your son is blessed to have you.

  3. My aunt is a single mother. May God strengthen, bless, and provide for you in that extra-challenging role. May He give you His peace in the relational conflicts and His forgiveness for any wounds that have led to this place.

    There is no substitute for a mother. Your son does need you. God will answer and probably already is answering your prayers to love your son well.

  4. I was a single mom for five years when my husband and I were separated. I understand how difficult it can be. The one thing which has gratified me as my children are now adults is they always need their parent. The methods may change but the important role of "mother" never does.

  5. I loved this story. You sound like a great mom. He will remember as he grows older. :o)

  6. Hi Jenni! Thanks for sharing your post in the Faith Jam. My mom was a single parent -- and it is without a shadow of a doubt, who you are to your son is invaluable. I love how our boys bless us... those hugs are priceless ... and God SEES you, sweet Mommy! :)