Usually I am a very positive person. I can always find the silver lining in a situation.
Usually I can get knocked down and I get right back up. I always look to the future, remembering that this is just one moment and that God's plans are for me than I could ever imagine.
Usually I am steady and stable. I am the one people come to in times of need.
Today I have been rocked in ways that I never expected and I am not sure what the final outcome of it all will be.
What I really want to do is collapse into someone's arms, cry, and tell them all about it, but I don't have anyone to turn to.
What I really want to do is make snide comments about situations that have occurred, but I know I am better than that. Being ugly doesn't help the situation but only tears me away from God.
Tonight I am working on holding back the tears and hanging on tight to the following quote from Ruthless Trust by Brennan Manning:
The way of trust is a movement into obscurity, into the undefined, into ambiguity, not into some predetermined, clearly delineated plan for the future. The next step discloses itself only out of a discernment of God acting in the desert of the present moment. The reality of naked trust is the life of a pilgrim who leaves what is nailed down, obvious, and secure, and walks into the unknown without any rational explanation to justify the decision or guarantee the future.I am also holding on to the following two blog posts: The Scenic Route, I wasn't going to blog today, and Get of the Boat, Big. Both has helped me a ton today. Thank you, ladies!
There is no doubt that God is in all of this. I know that tomorrow will be better - things always look better in the morning. Now it is time to focus on the blessings in my life and hold fast to my faith - He has a plan.